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Still flummoxed but I’m OK with that

Flummoxed: “To throw into perplexity….”

Which is definitely my state of mind when I took a peek at social media earlier this week. Which I don’t do very often because I know I will fall into an endless scroll of funny dog videos. Which will be interspersed with political videos. Which will fire up my adrenaline and make me all trembly and upset and send me back to the dog videos to calm myself down but: then there is the interspersing.

I was taking a peek because I’m exploring re-engaging my blogging practice more regularly and I wanted to check out what’s happening out here relative to advice I’ve heard over the years about how often to post, what to post, when to post, search engine optimization, yadda yadda yadda. Some folx say a blog must have a content focus. Others say to just let fly, cuz it’s a consistent voice aka personality that people connect with more than the content.

All of the advice has been aimed at getting the biggest bang (aka exposure!) for the “buck” of time and energy (aka that which is ineffable, irreplaceable and expires at an unknown day and time).

I quickly became flummoxed about the apparent morass that is now social media. I managed to stop scrolling the videos and go to bed four hours after I’d started the peeking and woke feeling hung-over.

And then: I had the great good fortune to speak with an old friend who reminded me that INEFFICIENCY is how community gets built. An hour of conversation directed by the moment’s whim and what is happening with those who are actually in the room together.

A radical idea, to choose to spend our ineffable hours doing something that is not for profit, not for an agenda, not on a to-do list, not SEO-directed, not AI-“improved,” not targeted, not curated. Being a flawed human being in time and space with other flawed human beings, being.

Or, maybe, being in solitude.

My story “Torquere” was published online (how ironic!) in Eclectica this week. I invite you to read it, and all the other fine work in that issue.

More, I hope you step away from your device and go outside, or chop some carrots for a salad, or, perhaps best of all, stare into space and let yourself breathe. Because my god the world is beautiful.

Eugene Oregon, August 2026.

June-July 2023: Summer reading and a sort-of love letter to Becky Chambers and Ross Gay

The infrastructural delineation between human space and everything-else space was stark. … the villages … were as neatly corralled as the City …. This had been the way of things since the Transition, when the people had redivided the surface of their moon.

Becky Chambers, A Psalm for the Wild-Built (18)

Oh oh oh my summer reading list started off with Becky Chamber’s Monk & Robot series. Which manifests Charlie Baxter’s idea that one of a writer’s roles is to serve as an archivist of the vanishing world, and Toni Morrison’s encouragement to imagine your ideal future, and to then paint your rooms the colors they would be in that ideal future. (I heard her speak to that concept when I was a young woman in Cambridge, ~1990, and have had turquoise blue on my walls ever since.) As we live betwixt and between a past that is–literally–going up in flames and an unknown present that we need to collectively imagine, I want Chambers’ vision to inform our north star:

And her vision is oh-so-palatable because she weaves sensory pleasure throughout:

They snacked on spicy pine seeds as the grill did its work, then gorged themself on slow-roasted elk and wavy-edged mushrooms and acorn flatbread freckled black with flame. A generous hunk of prickleberry cobbler was presented afterward, along with a bowl of mint leaves for Dee to munch on in the afterglow.

Becky Chambers, A Prayer for the Crown-Shy (25)

Even though this is fiction, “just a story,” it’s packed with Deep Concepts about consciousness, fairness, and tackles a Big Question: what do humans need? Chambers generously salts the two books of this series with sensory pleasures that make reading it a joy (and as Ross Gay reminds us, joy is a form of resistance*). Not incidentally, that delightful reading experience means we, the readers, can directly experience the (joyful) humaneness of living in this alternative future. Damn, Becky Chambers, you have nailed it!

You have also brought to fruition the seed my mentor planted months ago: my own story has been falling short because it has been almost completely bleak. So bleak that I have rushed to its end, because even I, the author, haven’t wanted to linger with the rising waters, death, and general misery. What a terrific relief to turn toward what can still be or become beautiful and bountiful. What a terrific practice, to focus on what will be right even as many things go wildly wrong.

What a terrific gift, to have a life in this moment.

May it be so.

*Specifically:

My hunch is that joy is an ember for or precursor to wild and unpredictable and transgressive and unboundaried solidarity. And that that solidarity might insect further joy. which might incite further solidarity. and on and on. My hunch is that joy, emerging from our common sorrow–which does not necessarily mean we have the same sorrows, but that we, in common, sorrow–might draw us together. It might depolarize us and de-atomize us enough that we can consider what, in common, we love. And though attending to what we hate in common is too often all the rage (and it happens to also be very big business), noticing what we love in common, and studying that, might help us survive.

Ross Gay, Inciting Joy (9-10)

This wasn’t what I was going to write about . . .

I was going to write about beauty. I had lofty plans, including references to neuroscience.

But yesterday this quote caught my eye:

On a day when the wind is perfect,

the sail just needs to open

and the world is full of beauty.

Today is such a day.

–Rumi

And today Sara Dobie Bauer’s blog holds a terrific video of Benedict Cumberbatch reading a letter from Sol LeWitt to Eva Hesse about the practice of art.

Sharing these says enough about beauty and the art of practice, for now. Neuroscience-y post will come next week.

May you and your writing open your sails and abide by LeWitt’s advice to DO.